Abby rested through the night last night and did not have a seizure! Oh how hopeful that makes me on this sunny and warm Monday. I could just sob with relief as it appears she has been saved again. Each time the "wheels come off" I just am flooded with images of her limp, unable to hold up her head, and twenty pounds... hanging by a thread from the attack of her disease and I just go into this zone... this FIGHT, FIND THE ANSWER, and HANDLE IT mode. During that darkest time in her life... I could always see her "life" in her eyes... almost screaming to come out and it would choke me. "Responsibility" fighting against/with "surrendering to God" is exhausting. It is hard to even put into words.
Today she is at school... and she is happy to be there. She has also gone three days without a seizure during the day. I am so thankful to God for his mercy.
In that gap, when I could not pray, you did. You prayed for her and you prayed for us. And your prayers were heard, they helped, and they have been answered. Abby did not fall into the dark hole that resides outside the corner of our life. And I can not find a big enough "Thank you" for your heart, for your love, for your meals, for your prayers, for your visits, for your hugs, for your tears, for your faith, for your friendship. You mean so much to me. I love you dearly. Please continue to pray... we are still on a day to day basis... but then again... aren't we all.