Well, I am very aware that this world is not as it seems. The spiritual attack against us is daily and my amazing amount of irritation is just that... an attack on all involved. Sadly, more arrows have been hurled and I am in full throttle battle.
We found out late last night that someone who needs to be involved in Brenda coming back (I will not name them now) says that they don't have time or man power to be involved right now. This has come as a GREAT shock but at the same time I am not surprised. So we are waiting to see what happens now.
Then as if that wasn't enough, Abby had three seizures this morning. It's been EONS since she has had multiple ones like that. She had several last week and so she is sleeping with me now so I can monitor her better. Each one this morning delivered deep blows to my heart and soul.
So I am standing firm on the promises of God, the power of the Holy Spirit who is active today, and my relationship with the Lord. I had some quiet time late last night and in my prayer time, the Lord showed me two scriptures that spoke directly to what I was praying about.
I was praising him and telling him that I know he is bigger than any situation and his power is bigger than any problem... and that His plan is sovereign and good. I asked him to show himself in this situation and just make his power known... to make it another testimony to who he is and how alive and active he is in our lives. And I saw "John 1:14" I opened my eyes and Fly Boy's bible was still on the coffee table from small group the night before. I opened it, read, and smiled. "The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth."
So I pressed in deeper and used that scripture to pray to God some more. "Yes Lord, we have seen your glory and we do know your truth... your glory and your truth shines in this dark world today! Thank you that I can rely on your truth... that it is always there and constant... please show me the truth right now," I prayed.
I then told him that I just don't know that if this Brenda situation is a spiritual battle to try and keep her from coming to a family where she can know and accept Christ or if it's God trying to close doors. I said, "You know my heart God, and I only want to do what you want me to do, I trust in your will and I am asking you to clearly show me your will and your plan and give me wisdom and guide me to see what you want us to do here." And then I clearly saw Matthew. Then I saw 14:28. This has happened to me a couple times before when I have sat and waited for God to "speak" to me. SO I turned with great anticipation but some hesitation to that scripture. I had NO IDEA what it said... or even if there were 28 verses in that chapter!
Matthew 14: 28 "Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "Tell me to come to you on the water."
Matthew 14: 29 "Come," he said.
I was so excited I had to call Fly Boy in and tell him! I LOVE it when God speaks to me and shows me He is right there and that he is hearing my prayers! I know that as long as we are honestly seeking God and his will... that He will make it and himself known! And I will walk out onto the water to my Lord!
So that is what I am clinging to... and the knowledge of knowing that you will pray for us. For us as we fight this battle... as we wait on the Lord... for Brenda... and for Abby. I need you... and I am so thankful for each one of you. You are gifts to me from the Lord. :0)
Thank you. I love you.
POST EDIT: Abby had a long seizure today at school. Prayer warriors are needed... thank you.