New... full of promise and hope
I still just shake my head at the thought of the fact it is 2013. I seriously can not believe how quickly time is passing.
I am not one to make new year's resolutions. I have never really liked the thought of setting myself up for failure right at the start of a new year... full of promise and hope. But there is also something very alluring about a new year standing before you... something that almost begs for deep thoughts and reflections. Purposeful living.
I had a mini-breakdown last night. I was lying in bed... thinking about my life... and it just overwhelmed me with frustration, disappointment, sadness, and guilt. Yeah. Not fabulous emotions by any means.
I spilled to my husband how disappointed I am with certain things in my life... how exhausted I am with the very feelings I try to balance and the constant effort I put forth to try and "correct" them. Piled on top of all of that festivity is the guilt. My life is full of blessing. It is full of God's love and His hand and His presence... and yet my thoughts are not of thanksgiving and joy... they are of frustration, exhaustion, and guilt.
I have seen what it looks like on the other side. I have seen children waiting in orphanages for a family to come... I have seen a mud hut full of six people who sleep on a swept dirt floor... huddled under one mosquito net... hoping to not be bitten, hoping to make it safely into another day. And yet...
A friend posted a link to a blog post on facebook today and it caught my eye... "How I decluttered our home." You can check it out HERE.
As I read the post... it hit me. It refreshed me. It called out to me! I need to declutter my life. I need to declutter my home. I need to declutter my schedule. I need to declutter my responsibilities. I need to declutter my mind and soul.
I need to learn to abide.
So that is what I am moving towards. That is what is going to guide my life this year. And I am claiming it... this year is my year. I am pulling in and restoring my soul. I am going to hunker down at home and abide.
One of the things I plan to do is reread Ann Voskamp's, One Thousand Gifts. I blew through it last year and had intention to read it again but ended up giving my copy to someone in Latvia. It is an amazing read. To watch how God transforms one's soul and perspective though gratitude and thanksgiving is very inspiring. It is beautiful. Simply beautiful. And I highly recommend it.
I have a copy for you... if you want it. Simply leave a comment in this post and you will be entered to win. Next Tuesday night, after 6 p.m., I will draw a name and announce the winner on Wednesday.
And just to get my gratitude rolling... here are a few of my thankfuls of just this morning...
*Husband bringing me coffee in bed
*Cardinals on the bird feeder
*Devotion speaking right to my thoughts today... "Shedding the Old."
*Hugs and smiles from daughters
*Joy and excitement in a little watching Avenger cartoon
*Clean kitchen, counters, & sink
*My husband's deep and unconditional love reflecting the Father's love for my little mess of me
Have a blessed weekend sweet friend.