Today I will know.
Post Note: The test said "NO". He said "No".
And that is alright.
I trust in His word and His promises and His plan... His will.
The coolest thing is that I can say that with 100% of my soul.
"The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps." Prov. 16:9
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jer. 29:11
As we traveled through the darkest time in our lives, in the midst of Abby's illness and rapid decline, "The Mystery of God's Will," by Charles Swindoll, changed my perspective and really helped change my life... as well as "Disappointment with God," by Philip Yancey.
Swindoll: "Doing the will of God is rarely easy and uncomplicated. Instead, it is often difficult and convoluted. (57) "The longer we walk with God, the more we realize that we really don't know what each new day may bring... God alone knows our future. And there's no safer, better, no more rewarding place to be than in the nucleus of His will, regardless of where that may be." (70) "In God's sovereign plan, your life may be painful, disappointing, difficult, inexplicably confusing, and downright mysterious. But through it all, God somehow will get all the glory. (90) "He wants us to know His will. Though He remains "silent as light," He is engaged in directing our steps." (103) "When you are walking in the Spirit, and when you're thinking through Scriptures reflectively, when you are open to where God's leading, that magnet will start pulling you, and you will sense a direction." (107)
This was personal to share today. Some thank me often for being real. Some wonder why I am so personal.
This is why.
There are people who read this blog because they have a child suffering, many who never leave me a comment and many I have never met. There are people who read this blog because they struggle with infertility. Others read it because they knew me back when and want to know what is going on in my life. Others read it because they have a deep love for us, miss us, and want to feel like are more a part of our daily lives (family). But all these people have one thing in common... they can see God present in our lives. Our real lives. Our moments of happiness and joy, our moments of sadness and fear, moments or anticipation and acceptance.... life's moments. And if one person who reads this blog can see God... in the good, bad, and ugly... and be encouraged and strengthened in their own "real life"... then God is glorified. That is worth me being personal... and real... and so I share.
I pray one person is uplifted. God is in control. His will is perfect. We could not be in better hands... baby feet or no baby feet...