Fasting, Praying, Praising (and hawks!)
Today is day eight of my detox and I have fasted since 8 p.m. last night. It's about 7 p.m. now and I am feeling so tempted to just go have a pear! But I will not! Nope, nope, nope.
I wanted my detox fasting day to be more than just not having food. My day started with the morning at the spa and it was OH SO NEEDED and enjoyed and appreciated. I have less pain in my back right now than I have had in a month!
After my morning of luxury, I went to the bookstore during the lunch hour. I looked through all kinds of magazines and just lounged. Oh so pleasant and fun. After a brief stop at Wal-Mart, I came home and enjoyed and hour and a half out walking with my little Roonies (Dusty).
As we stopped by the lake for some sunshine and thought and prayer... I was asking God, literally, "Please let me hear from you... I need to hear from you." I had been praying all along the walk about various subjects we are struggling with right now. I wanted just one answer.
Within less than a minute of asking that, a very loud squawking started behind. As it came closer and continued, I thought... hoped... it was a hawk. If you have been reading my blog... or know me... hawks are little love moments between me and my amazing maker and creator of the universe. As I turned around, this majestic squawking hawk was soaring right towards me. As my eyes teared up and a little girl smile erupted across my face... he took perch on a tree just 20 feet from me. To HEAR the hawk and not just see it was so perfectly and audaciously God! As I was basking in my Lord's gift, it started to squawk again. "I hear you Lord... don't know what you are saying... but I hear and see you... you are here." Just then, another squawking began and to my overflowing delight, another hawk soared in just a few trees over from the first. Then we all three (four counting Dusty) sat there for about ten minutes as I praised my maker.
I still don't know what the 2 hawks mean... but I know what I felt. God is here... here with me. Even when I can't discern what He is telling me... He is speaking and He is present. I will find courage and strength in that and I will continue to look and listen for Him.
* Thank you to my precious husband who taught Abby school today and has given me the entire day off from parenting. What a treat.
Today is day eight of my detox and I have fasted since 8 p.m. last night. It's about 7 p.m. now and I am feeling so tempted to just go have a pear! But I will not! Nope, nope, nope.
I wanted my detox fasting day to be more than just not having food. My day started with the morning at the spa and it was OH SO NEEDED and enjoyed and appreciated. I have less pain in my back right now than I have had in a month!
After my morning of luxury, I went to the bookstore during the lunch hour. I looked through all kinds of magazines and just lounged. Oh so pleasant and fun. After a brief stop at Wal-Mart, I came home and enjoyed and hour and a half out walking with my little Roonies (Dusty).
As we stopped by the lake for some sunshine and thought and prayer... I was asking God, literally, "Please let me hear from you... I need to hear from you." I had been praying all along the walk about various subjects we are struggling with right now. I wanted just one answer.
Within less than a minute of asking that, a very loud squawking started behind. As it came closer and continued, I thought... hoped... it was a hawk. If you have been reading my blog... or know me... hawks are little love moments between me and my amazing maker and creator of the universe. As I turned around, this majestic squawking hawk was soaring right towards me. As my eyes teared up and a little girl smile erupted across my face... he took perch on a tree just 20 feet from me. To HEAR the hawk and not just see it was so perfectly and audaciously God! As I was basking in my Lord's gift, it started to squawk again. "I hear you Lord... don't know what you are saying... but I hear and see you... you are here." Just then, another squawking began and to my overflowing delight, another hawk soared in just a few trees over from the first. Then we all three (four counting Dusty) sat there for about ten minutes as I praised my maker.
I still don't know what the 2 hawks mean... but I know what I felt. God is here... here with me. Even when I can't discern what He is telling me... He is speaking and He is present. I will find courage and strength in that and I will continue to look and listen for Him.
* Thank you to my precious husband who taught Abby school today and has given me the entire day off from parenting. What a treat.
Beautiful. Your faith is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOh...and on Sunny's facebook she has posted several pics from high school. Beautiful!!! Ya'll were beautiful with your hair styles!!! ha ha You must go look!!!
BTW, I'm from the 80's so my pics are BEAUTIFUL ALSO!!!
Keep the faith Dawn. God will supply your needs.
Oh my goodness. That is just amazing!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you got a day to relax!
Can't wait to clean and chat on Friday!!!! I'm excited! :D
BEAUTIFUL! I love this post! And I'm loving your detox plan! Amy and I talked about reading that book just the other day. Way to go!
ReplyDeleteLOVED your Christmas card! The family picture was just beautiful. You are in my prayers!