Tuesday, September 30, 2008
OK. This is my 400th post! I am excited. Looking back... it's crazy to see it all... cool... I need to get it in a book. My friend from high school, Sunny, is turning 34 soon and listed 34 things about herself on her blog. She "tagged" her fellow 34 year old friends to do the same. So here they are... extra little insights into the madness of myself!
1. was proposed to on the cliffs of Ireland
2. eloped two months before wedding
3. flew out to an aircraft carrier in college to do my final paper/video for Journalism class
4. was ripped off in modeling scheme and was in the news about it
5. was the associate producer for the 10 o’clock news at FOX in Raleigh my senior year of college at UNC
6. had the most wonderful college professor who believed in me and took me under his wing… he passed away a few years ago and he remains one of the most influential men in my life
7. taught preschool for a year
8. waitressed my way through college
9. am a hopeless romantic
10. am terrible about flossing my teeth… the whole hands in my mouth just gets to me
11. have been my husband’s co-pilot on several occasions
12. think that motherhood is one of the greatest gifts God has given to women
13. think pregnant bellies totally ROCK and IF I ever have one… I will flaunt it! Just the thought makes me laugh!
14. am addicted to music
15. cliff jumped and snorkeled in Cuba
16. could live in Sicily in a heartbeat
17. love to touch old things… like have to touch them… even when I am not supposed to… I am like a kid in a candy shop… I just have to reach out and touch it
18. feel a deep connection with animals and feel privileged to connect with them… like the tiger in the Norfolk zoo that sat and “talked” to me for over 10 minutes… thank goodness there was a fence or I would have been in there with him!
19. love to watch golf on television… hate to play it
20. have had lemon with my water since the 8th grade when my precious teacher, Mrs. Griep, told me it would help me drink more water
21. love to read and to write… and to color. I can color in a coloring book for hours.
22. would love to make a movie!
23. have met Demi Moore, Willie Nelson, Charlton Heston, John McCain, and stood three feet from David Beckham but didn’t say hello to him… was trying to play it off cool…
24. honeymooned in my three favorite “old” cities… Savannah, Charleston, and St. Augustine
25. have lived in 6 states… would love to live in more!
26. have visited seven countries… would LOVE to visit more… Spain next please
27. LOVE ancient history
28. LOVE to make things
29. can grill or cook anything… actually pretty well… but am NOT Betty Crocker!
30. have picked up several hitch hikers and am under strict orders to not do so again
31. give much credit to my friends and amazing teachers (and the love they gave me) for getting me through High School
32. have a growing love for photography
33. am dying to get a tattoo
34. love my family with every ounce of who I am… and can’t wait to be 35
Well, last week, as I folded clothes and tears rolled down my cheeks for Abby, I had my third washing of the Holy Spirit. When the Holy Spirit gives you knowledge... it comes instantly, fully, and beautifully washes over you, leaving you smiling and going.... "Ohhhh... OK....!"
As many of you know, I have loved my alone time while Abby is at school. I do Bible studies and of course, run a business. That time while she is away, in an atmosphere that she loves, has given me a sense of balance. I have never considered home schooling... never. I can be quoted as saying, "It's not for me."
But Thursday, my heart changed and my eyes were opened and I was "washed" the the idea, desire, and even conviction to be my precious one's teacher. How it seems so "natural" now is totally a "God Thing".
The other amazing thing is how God has orchestrated certain things in my life to get me to this point, to prepare me for this task, and to willingly let go of other distractions (I'll elaborate more on that one later!).
So today, in my pajamas, I start the task of changing the playroom into a school room. I am bubbly inside with excitement and thanksgiving. I am thrilled for my little one... we both will bloom.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
I almost deleted my post from yesterday. I was angry... yah.
Anyway... I have decided not to delete it. Even though my blog is an outlet for encouragement, it also reflects who I am and there is one thing that I try to be... in every situation... and that is "real". I am not "Mary Sunshine" all the time and just because I love the Lord and am learning to trust Him more and more each day of my life, does not mean that I walk around with a "everything is fine" attitude.
Everything is not fine, but it WILL be OK. So I hope I didn't leave many, or any, of you disillusioned yesterday! Be encouraged that it is OK to be real and have real emotions about real issues!
Simplifying Update: I've thrown away 26 bottles of nail polish (kept 20), numerous hair products, self tanner (used once... hate orange), old makeup, and taken one car load to the consignment store and another load to the thrift store. But there is much more to be done! Feels Good! Try It!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
I am in a swirl. Swirl of emotion, swirl of thoughts, swirl of desires, swirl of hopes, swirl of frustrations, swirl of energy and swirl of exhaustion. Even though I usually remain optimistic... I have my moments. I am in... a moment... a moment of swirl.
There is this inner girl... voice... that knows what she wants but not really how to get there. An inner girl that wants things to be different and an inner girl that longs to just "be"... be content... be still... be.
So all things things are running through my mind and I need to process and "file" them. Organize. I need to organize my life... my space... my thoughts... my time. And the theme that keeps screaming loudly at me through all the muck is "Simplify".
Such a "simple" word with oh so much meaning. Such a "simple" word that requires much thought and energy to accomplish. But.... what if? What if I can get through the process? What will it be like on the other side? Will it be easier, calmer, better, "simpler"? Or will it leave me longing for more? Hmmmmmmmmmm..........
And so this is what swirls in my head... my thoughts, my heart, my soul. I would have a lot to simplify. I would have a lot to change. Can I do it? Will it be worth it?
I am wondering, pondering, and mulling over simplifying my wardrobe. Whewww... there... it's said... it's in print. Would my life be better... easier... simpler... if I had four pairs of jeans instead of eight? Six sweaters instead of 15? Two---- or---- three---- purses instead of---- hmmm--- ugh----- aaa--- 12? My heart tells me "yes". The tug I am feeling tells me "yes".
Then take this concept and spread it through out my home and lifestyle.... hmmmmmmmm.
This is what I am mulling about. This is my moment... my moment of swirl... should and can I do it? Simplify.
In the meantime, I am on a mission to simplify my bathroom drawers and baskets. Hair products, nail polish, old makeup, and other such bathroom clutter is going to be "simplified" today. Today is the day. It's going to be done. I am going to do it now...
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
As Don and I stood there, also smiling from ear to ear, we praised God for her health and the fact that she was able to enjoy such a sweet childhood moment that so many could take for granted. And I praise HIM again for the year of health HE has so graciously given to her and us.
But as Don and I took turns riding rides with her, watched her ride alone, enjoyed a hot, greasy, covered with sugar funnel cake, and even took in that funky smell... I realized God was giving me a bonus gift. He was giving me the precious gift of healing. The little girl inside of me that felt so left out was at her own carnival and having fun with her precious daughter and her amazingly precious husband. She was watching her daughter hold her husband's hand and was watching her be blessed... and yes, the tears surfaced again.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008
Friday, September 05, 2008
Thank you all so much for your sweet prayers and concern for my grandfather. His break was too risky to risk surgery and so they put a halo on him two days ago. It went well and even though it is very hard for him to have on, he is better. Some of the hospital issues have improved and now, of course, there is insurance drama as we are awaiting them to transfer him to a rehab center in Huntsville. Hopefully they will be resolved soon and he'll be out of there and closer to home to recover.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
TEN NIGHTS OF BLESSINGS!
Even though our precious one has the coo-coo- pox... she has been 10 nights seizure free! We praise God so very much for this blessing and pray He continues to cover her with His almighty hand of healing, grace, mercy, protection and love!
Note: Abby likes to call her chicken pox "coo-coo pox". We have taught her that it is not nice to call anyone names. In her first year of kindergarten, kids called each other "coo-coo" and Abby was told not to say that so "coo-coo" became a "bad" word per say. When we discovered her bumps, she was upset and looking for the words to describe her dismay and "stupid" (also not allowed) and "coo-coo" were chosen! So I decided that "coo-coo" was an appropriate adjective to describe these little bumps of discomfort and she was very amused and delighted when I offered up renaming the disease "coo-coo pox".
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Just one more thing...
My precious one, Abby, has chicken pox. When I helped her get dressed this morning, nothing. When she went to the restroom tonight at 6:30 p.m..... half her body is broken out! Mercy! Next... I'll get measles... or polio... or scarlet fever... and Don can fall from the tree house he is painting and break his leg... and then the dog can get hit by a car... and then... wait... I should stop there... don't want to spoil it for everyone! And my husband just beat me mercilessly in dominoes (as usual). I need to go pray. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
My grandfather was in a car wreck this weekend and broke his neck. Yes, this is the grandfather who lost two of his daughters and his wife in the past eight months. He was air lifted to Erlanger in Chattanooga, TN. The situation is horrible... a joke... madness. That's all I will say for right now.
My mother is trying to get a lot of things done today and I just ask for you to lift her up in your prayers. She is almost sleep walking at this point. She needs energy, patience, comfort, strength, and guidance. Please pray God will open a door today and my grandfather will get the treatment he needs and the hospital will be held accountable for some HORRIBLE things they have done and for so much they haven't done! Thank you.
Please pray my grandfather will be brought closer to God during this time and that he will be given strength and a calmness in his spirit... he is literally about to lose his mind. And please pray for the rest of the family members who are just SPENT at this time.... they so need God's very hand upon them to renew them and walk with them during this time. Thank you all so much for your faithfulness in loving us and praying for us during this time. Much love to you all.
P.S. Today is my precious mother's birthday. Happy Birthday Mom. I love you so very much... I love you crazy.